weird times - 10 days to go
last week was weird. it started out really bad, but at the end of the week a stroke of luck followed another and everything just seemed to work out. can't complain.
i am still having a bit of that "just before major change anxiety", but i know it'll go away as soon as i take that first step. after that everything is always new, exciting and entertaining. and i'm good at it. i'm very good at leaving.
the anxiety is always related to that slight "what if?" ringin in the back of my head. the two words that i hate more than anything. i don't believe in unresolved shit. i wouldn't want to look back and think that i bailed out of something because it was the easier choice. just because i know that it's so much easier to leave than to stay.
i know how to leave. but at the same time i realise that one day i should learn how to stay too.
but hey, enough serious boring shit. i have a 'clean' flower in my very messy hair and i feel perty. it's good to feel perty when the sun shines.
i am still having a bit of that "just before major change anxiety", but i know it'll go away as soon as i take that first step. after that everything is always new, exciting and entertaining. and i'm good at it. i'm very good at leaving.
the anxiety is always related to that slight "what if?" ringin in the back of my head. the two words that i hate more than anything. i don't believe in unresolved shit. i wouldn't want to look back and think that i bailed out of something because it was the easier choice. just because i know that it's so much easier to leave than to stay.
i know how to leave. but at the same time i realise that one day i should learn how to stay too.
but hey, enough serious boring shit. i have a 'clean' flower in my very messy hair and i feel perty. it's good to feel perty when the sun shines.
4 comments:
Interesting comments 'Ghengis Khunt'. You are truly one strange and complicated woman. I think if you ever took a computer matchmaking quiz the right man would be a homicidal axe wielding maniac who enjoys Origami in his spare time.
Either that or a Doberman on heat.
Kiwi
you know, i'm just not sure if origami would do it for me...
I'll let Charles Manson know.
Kiwi
now that i think abt it, i don't think a computer matchmaking quiz would work.
the computer wouldn't know how they smell. they have to smell perty. and sexy.
i wonder if manson smelled perty?
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