sunday confessions

awesome. i just heard that another good friend of mine is reading my ramblings on the other side of the planet. just keep that poor kitty away from those vacuum cleaner hoses...

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what else? today has been a weird day. i've been hungover, stressed, confused, pissy, suffering from pms mood swings, snackish, creative, annoying, sad, productive, lazy and last but definitely not least fucken tired. sometimes i feel sorry for the people who have to co-exist within these same walls with me.

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i have to start dealing with my shit. this particular load of personal shit is like that disappearing/reappearing ink from childhood, that ended up spilling everywhere and coming up just when you thought that you got away with it. i'm finding myself on this bloody rollercoaster going from happyhappyjoyjoy to disappointment and frustration and back again. this seriously cannot be too healthy for longer time periods. and i can tell you, it's been going on for a *while* already.

it's just not that easy to make decisions that you can't agree with deep down. sometimes it would be so much easier to feel with your brain instead of thinking with your heart.

fuck this.