Monday, March 03, 2008

I know relationships aren't supposed to be easy, but I hope things never have to get this difficult again.

The problem with growing closer together with another person is that we both come complete with history. Not only does it provide us with scars and fears aplenty, but sometimes the past can find very unpleasant ways of colliding with the present day.

I can honestly say that the last couple of weeks have been the hardest in my life.

Sometimes the most painful and treacherous path is the only way forward. The thicker the walls and defenses surrounding the fragile core are, the more drastic measures are required to infiltrate through. The price of an open, honest and healing conversation can be almost unbearable.

My heart bares fresh new scars that will hopefully heal one day, even though I doubt the trauma will ever be forgotten. The healing process is starting with very small steps and even though the vicious knot of pain is still ever present, there is a flickering hope it will eventually start fading away.

The dearer the villain, the deeper the cuts. And still, some things are worth fighting for, even if it feels like it will kill you.

2 comments:

Gustav said...

Hang in there...

Being in love can be scary...

natalie said...

Does anyone know where i can get some cheap clear shoe boxes from. The cheapest shop i've found is www.tehshoelounge.co.uk but they've just sold out and wont have any more in until the 14th march! :(